After a profound shift in consciousness during a solitary retreat in May 2013 I was no longer able to get hold of my old roles and patterns of self identifications. It was as if a cage of frosted glass, which had obscured my vision for so long, had been shattered into billions of tiny pieces and there was simply no longer a way of putting them back together again to form the old frosted cage. Whereas in the past I would take glimpses into higher states of awareness, spontaneously or through meditation, I was inevitably posted back into my old mundane self, striving to find my way back into the clear light of reality which was unimpeded by viewpoints, judgements or personal issues. Now it felt as if the bridges back had been incinerated and for the time being at least I appeared to be permanently located on a new viewing platform with no roadmap back to my old self and any interest whatsoever in returning to my old ways had simply dissipated.
This is how the profound shift in consciousness affects my daily life. I found at least twelve major changes which made my new identity different from the old one, but as I feel I am only just embarking on my journey through these new wondrous vistas, I am sure there will be more to come as the sun keeps rising out of the morning mists:
1. Ecstatic Joy
There is an underlying feeling of ecstatic joy in life from the moment I wake up. There is an increase of spontaneous peak experiences during the day.
2. Feeling of ‘Home’
I have an ongoing feeling that I am on ‘home ground’ no matter where I am. The world is a familiar place with a constant feeling of being ‘home’. It feel as if the inside and the outside world are no longer separate places, but have merged into one.
3. Detachment
I no longer feel identified with personal comments or criticism directed at me, but it doesn’t mean I am indifferent. Praise and insult don’t reach very deep and mean very little.
4. Enhanced Empathy
I feel strong empathy with other living things, not just people and animals, but with life general. I feel engagement with the world without getting attached to it.